where do I go from here......

*TO EXHAUST THE INTEREST OR PATIENCE*

*I'M TIRED....
WAITING AROUND FOR THIS....
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF
NOT KNOWING WHAT I CAN CHANGE
YOU HAVEN'T SPOKEN YET
BUT HERE YOU ARE
*I'M TIRED....
WONDERING WHAT TO SAY NEXT
MY WORDS HATE ME
JUST EXPLAIN TO ME WHY
THOUGHTS OF RANDOMNESS
AND THERE YOU ARE, AGAIN

I MAY NEVER HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN
JUST KNOW THAT I DO
FOREVER ISN'T LONG ENOUGH
AND THAT'S HOW LONG I'LL LOVE YOU

PLEASE DON'T LOOK AT IT IN A BAD WAY
I THINK IT WAS THE BEST
OTHERWISE, YOU'D END UP HATEING ME FOREVER
I COULDN'T LET THAT HAPPEN

YOU KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY ONLY ONE
SO HURRY UP AND COME HOME

BUT IF YOU NEVER DO
I WON'T HOLD THAT AGAINST YOU

JUST KNOW THAT I DO
FOREVER ISN'T LONG ENOUGH
AND THAT'S HOW LONG I'LL LOVE YOU

DEAR RANDOM,  

    YOU ARE NOT MINE BUT I AM NOT YOURS, SO I GUESS.... I CANT COMPLAIN. WHY DOES THIS RANDOM MEMORY HAUNT ME SO? IT'S YOUR FAULT AND YOU GOT TO FIX IT. I DONT CARE HOW YOU DO IT, EITHER HURT ME OR BELIEVE ME. I NEED YOU TO SPOIL ME, TAKE ME, SHOW ME, AND LOVE ME. I NEVER WANTED TO BELONG TO SOMEONE. BUT NOW, IT KINDA TURNS ME ON.....TAKE ME RANDOMLY, BUT DO IT QUICK. I AM NOT GOING TO BE HERE FOR LONG.

LOVE,    

      THE LONELY GIRL OUTSIDE YOUR DOOR

 

I DONT KNOW WHY.........

      YOU TREAT ME THIS WAY

      I ALWAYS GIVE IN

      YOUR WITH ME

      I AM NOT ME

      I CANT AFFORD THIS LIFE

      YOU DONT HAVE GOALS

      I CANT ACCOMPLISH MINE

      THIS PIZZA IS SO GOOD

      I LIKE YOU

      I LOVE YOU

      I HATE YOU

      I CANT STAND YOU

      YOUR SO FUCKING HOT

      YOU WONT TAKE MY HAND

      I AM HERE

      I AM WRITTING THIS

- Security - personal, home, school, national, global

- Habitat - gone

- Health - conspriacy, prevention

- Humanity - trust, honesty

- Love - lust

 

I MISS THIS PLACE WITH GREEN HILLS AND TREES, BIG TREES, SO BIG YOU CAN'T HUG EM'!

I MISS THOSE DAYS THAT NEVER ENDED, WHEN SPONTANEOUS IDEAS MADE THE BEST MEMORYS.

I MISS DRIVING, NOT JUST ANY OL' DRIVING, BUT WHERE YOU DONT HAVE TO LOOK AT THE ROAD SIGNS TO KNOW WHERE YOUR AT!

I MISS WALKING INTO YOUR PLACE WITHOUT KNOCKING.

I MISS THE COUNTRY! WINDING ROADS AND ROLLER COASTER HILLS. WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I MISS STAYING UP ALL NIGHT, TILL THE DAWN, NOT ON MY COMPUTER BUT FROM FISHING AND SMELLING LIKE CAMP FIRE!

I MISS THIS PLACE WITH GREEN HILLS AND TREES, VIRGINIA BABY! VIRGINIA!

My sorry attempt at making poems flow....I dont even know what I am trying to say here?

 

~Walking lone downtown~I can barely see~Why you let her ware that crown~Just let it bee~Look up~See that~The Moon~It's a common denominator~Turn on a tune~Or we could watch Terminator~Take a bite~Tastes good~I miss dirt roads~Late late night again~Wish we shared same area codes~When can I regin~

Ahhhhhhh....it's coming, my 23rd BIRTHDAY! OMG how time flys by!

AVRIL LAVIGNE "SLIPPED AWAY"

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Nah nah la la la nah nah

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up

Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you

Yay, someone is finally starting school on Monday....9/12! Its been awhile seeing how I graduated from high school in 00' but I have to put myself through schoool, no silver spoon for this chica! I wouldnt have it any other way really! I am very proud of  myself.....I will be attending Otterbein College, I am already thinking of transfering back to VA, possibly Averett College...Just felt like sharing...so be prepared for some pixs around campus....

TORN

LIFE PULLS YOU APART SOMETIMES

IT TAKES DUCK TAPE TO HOLD IT

SOMETIMES I SWAY

IT DOESNT TAKE MUCH TO PULL ME BACK

SOMETIMES

JUST A PICTURE OR TWO

MAKES ME REALIZED HOW TORN I WAS

SHAME ON ME

BUT THATS LIFE

MAYBE I SHOULD LISTEN

THE SOUND IS LIKE STRECHING

PULLING TEETH

THATS WHEN YOU KNOW

WHEN ITS TIME TO STOP