Suesue's Journals

TIRED

*TO EXHAUST THE INTEREST OR PATIENCE*

*I'M TIRED....
WAITING AROUND FOR THIS....
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF
NOT KNOWING WHAT I CAN CHANGE
YOU HAVEN'T SPOKEN YET
BUT HERE YOU ARE
*I'M TIRED....
WONDERING WHAT TO SAY NEXT
MY WORDS HATE ME
JUST EXPLAIN TO ME WHY
THOUGHTS OF RANDOMNESS
AND THERE YOU ARE, AGAIN

FOREVER ISN'T LONG ENOUGH

I MAY NEVER HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN
JUST KNOW THAT I DO
FOREVER ISN'T LONG ENOUGH
AND THAT'S HOW LONG I'LL LOVE YOU

PLEASE DON'T LOOK AT IT IN A BAD WAY
I THINK IT WAS THE BEST
OTHERWISE, YOU'D END UP HATEING ME FOREVER
I COULDN'T LET THAT HAPPEN

YOU KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY ONLY ONE
SO HURRY UP AND COME HOME

BUT IF YOU NEVER DO
I WON'T HOLD THAT AGAINST YOU

JUST KNOW THAT I DO
FOREVER ISN'T LONG ENOUGH
AND THAT'S HOW LONG I'LL LOVE YOU

DEAR RANDOM.........

DEAR RANDOM,

YOU ARE NOT MINE BUT I AM NOT YOURS, SO I GUESS.... I CANT COMPLAIN. WHY DOES THIS RANDOM MEMORY HAUNT ME SO? IT'S YOUR FAULT AND YOU GOT TO FIX IT. I DONT CARE HOW YOU DO IT, EITHER HURT ME OR BELIEVE ME. I NEED YOU TO SPOIL ME, TAKE ME, SHOW ME, AND LOVE ME. I NEVER WANTED TO BELONG TO SOMEONE. BUT NOW, IT KINDA TURNS ME ON.....TAKE ME RANDOMLY, BUT DO IT QUICK. I AM NOT GOING TO BE HERE FOR LONG.

LOVE,

THE LONELY GIRL OUTSIDE YOUR DOOR

STUFF I DO NOT KNOW

I DONT KNOW WHY.........

YOU TREAT ME THIS WAY

I ALWAYS GIVE IN

YOUR WITH ME

I AM NOT ME

I CANT AFFORD THIS LIFE

YOU DONT HAVE GOALS

I CANT ACCOMPLISH MINE

THIS PIZZA IS SO GOOD

I LIKE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I HATE YOU

I CANT STAND YOU

YOUR SO FUCKING HOT

YOU WONT TAKE MY HAND

I AM HERE

I AM WRITTING THIS

things that WERE but will NEVER BE

- Security - personal, home, school, national, global

- Habitat - gone

- Health - conspriacy, prevention

- Humanity - trust, honesty

- Love - lust

GREEN HILLS AND TREES

I MISS THIS PLACE WITH GREEN HILLS AND TREES, BIG TREES, SO BIG YOU CAN'T HUG EM'!

I MISS THOSE DAYS THAT NEVER ENDED, WHEN SPONTANEOUS IDEAS MADE THE BEST MEMORYS.

I MISS DRIVING, NOT JUST ANY OL' DRIVING, BUT WHERE YOU DONT HAVE TO LOOK AT THE ROAD SIGNS TO KNOW WHERE YOUR AT!

I MISS WALKING INTO YOUR PLACE WITHOUT KNOCKING.

I MISS THE COUNTRY! WINDING ROADS AND ROLLER COASTER HILLS. WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I MISS STAYING UP ALL NIGHT, TILL THE DAWN, NOT ON MY COMPUTER BUT FROM FISHING AND SMELLING LIKE CAMP FIRE!

I MISS THIS PLACE WITH GREEN HILLS AND TREES, VIRGINIA BABY! VIRGINIA!

~Moon~

My sorry attempt at making poems flow....I dont even know what I am trying to say here?

~Walking lone downtown~I can barely see~Why you let her ware that crown~Just let it bee~Look up~See that~The Moon~It's a common denominator~Turn on a tune~Or we could watch Terminator~Take a bite~Tastes good~I miss dirt roads~Late late night again~Wish we shared same area codes~When can I regin~

It's coming............

Ahhhhhhh....it's coming, my 23rd BIRTHDAY! OMG how time flys by!

STUCK IN MY HEAD

AVRIL LAVIGNE "SLIPPED AWAY"

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Nah nah la la la nah nah

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up

Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you

ITS ABOUT GAWD DANG TIME!

Yay, someone is finally starting school on Monday....9/12! Its been awhile seeing how I graduated from high school in 00' but I have to put myself through schoool, no silver spoon for this chica! I wouldnt have it any other way really! I am very proud of myself.....I will be attending Otterbein College, I am already thinking of transfering back to VA, possibly Averett College...Just felt like sharing...so be prepared for some pixs around campus....